Plastic Hearts &Paper Bags

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Hard Candy is a hardcore movie

go rent it some time soon!

it's M18

(GodKnowsWhy)

vulnerable

Y

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

okay i am very very lazy to recount

what happened yesterday.

so i shall lift this post

from jenn's blog

http://www.xanga.com/halfwaycrazy

Today(more like yesterday) was awesomeee! with

Yuanmay, Ambra, Audrey, Ben and Jazreel

(plus jenn too of course).

Audrey came out even though she's not allowd to.

Yay I love her. (Go out buy coke eh, Audrey?)
~~Anyway, met Ambra and went to Far East.~~

~~Revoltage wasn't open. Hahaha no eyecandy.~~

~~And Batman shirt was sold out.~~

~~Majorrrr disappointment x2.~~
Then we headed down to Bugis

to meet Audrey and Ben.

Then Jazreel and Yuanmay came along.

Cabbed down to Arab street which

was only 10mins walking distance away

cause we didn't know how to go.

That Ambra super airhead can.

Hahaha,

want to go Arab Street then don't know how to go.

The weather was superrrr hot.

Didn't take as much pictures as I expected.

Walked into some gallery museum thing.

Hawhaw we're like some tourist idiots.

Audrey and Ben left earlier

and the rest of us went to this nice cafe for a drink.

shall upload pictures when

i get them from yuanmay

vulnerable

Y

Monday, May 28, 2007

this is really random,

but i think smarties are so cute.

and i'm wishing time would

go by faster.

i'm practically dying,

staring at the fucking clock.

someone save me,

sweep me off my feet now/

vulnerable

Y

i've been checking my phone

for that one msg,

though i know you'll only be back at 5.

five more hours D:

i can't wait.

ohwells,

watched Pirates Of The Caribbean last night .

nice (:

but they made Singapore look

really disgusting .

outing with Jenn&Bra tmr

to Arab street .

camwhoring and shopping!

hopefully i can go[:

and sorry i missed Deafcon3 merv

vulnerable

Y

Friday, May 25, 2007

being without you was harder

than i thought it was .

hurry up ,

come back.

and i'm sorry we've been quarrelling

the past few days .

i didn't even get to say a

proper good-bye .

just got home from MarinaSquare.

had dinner then shopped

around with mom .

got a top and a pretty necklace.

everywhere's like having

discounts and sales ,

which means everywhere's

practically swarming with people.

oh wells,

watched Midsummer Night's Dream

with Anna, Cory and the rest last night

at FortCanning .

it was quite good ,

ya'll should go catch it this weekend.

the tickets are 28 bucks.

but we got them at 12 i think .

tmr's the parent-teacher meet,

and FlatSyde wants to meet mom

because i've been failing miserably.

well,

i mean who hasn't?

no one understands her ,

she's like some fucking alien .

she's probably gonna complain

that i sleep/talk/stone too much in class.

so anyways,

i need a nice tan.

vulnerable

Y

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

i miss him so much

i can't even think fucking straight .

two whole days of hanging with Anna

could really drive one insane!

she's one motherfucking joker i swear.

she gets me through the day .

that girl has to learn to control herself

haha

she's embarassed herself like

323576392562 times in two days .

but still,

she's the bomb yozzxzxxzx!

"ah girrrrl, you eating again ah?"

crash diet babyyyyy

vulnerable

Y

Monday, May 21, 2007

i don't need to go to school

today, tmr and wednesday!

cause' Mr Armstrong picked me

to go for this Asian Theatre workshop

at St Nick's which is so fucking boring .

at least i have Anna, Yvonne and Sam.

but still,

if any of you come up to me and say

"AYYE YOU ARE SO LUCKY YOU DONT

HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOOL!"

i will slap you.

it really is super boring,

like we learn about Thai Wayang .

do i give a shit?

no i don't think so.

and the guy who conducts the

workshop hates me anyways .

damn ittttttt

i would so rather go to school!

guess what,

i heard tjl got suspended again .

doesn't that woman ever

learn her lesson?

wells,

school's alot better without her anyway.

don't need to worry about

my hair, uniform and what not.

Anna really saved me from dying today.

so thank you :D

hope tmr's not as boring .

9 to 4.30 just kill me .

vulnerable

Y

Sunday, May 20, 2007

GOT A NEW iPod!<3

white iVideo.

sexy much.

i could touch myself just

looking at it .

hurrr,

but of course i wouldn't .

so yeah,

met reyan last night .

went to vivo to watch a movie,

Bridge To Terabithia.

heart-warming more than cool

but overall good.

after that hung around at

Coffee Bean and overdosed

ourselves on caffeine

and sinful cake :/

window shopped,

reyan got very bored/hungry.

pick either one.

headed to Carl's Jr to

grab a burger .

went home,

talked to Ben on the phone

till i fell asleep.

i never thought i'd need you there when i cry

&the days feel like years when i'm alone.

&the bed where you lie is made up on your side.

when you walk away i count the steps that you take,

do you see how much i need you right now?

vulnerable

Y

Thursday, May 17, 2007

CRAMPS

no fun.

passed geog for the first time.

flunked science,

as usual.

my standard of english

has dropped frighteningly

from A1s to like a B or is it a C .

damned,

tell me i'm dreaming .

i am brainless .

b-r-a-i-n-l-e-s-s

oooh

at least i still can spell.

vulnerable

Y

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

SUCK MY BALLS LUH .

FRIGGIN' HEADACHE.

DON'T BOTHER ME

UNLESS GOD CALLS .

SURE,

LOTS OF PEOPLE

BELIEVE IN GOD.

LOTS OF PEOPLE USED

TO BELIEVE THE

WORLD WAS FLAT TOO.

WHEN I WAS LITTLE,

I ASKED MOM ,

'WHAT'S GOD?'

AND SHE TOLD ME ,

'GOD IS KINDA LIKE

THE BIGGEST ANGEL OF ALL.

LIVING IN A PLACE

CALLED HEAVEN.

HIS JOB IS TO WATCH

OVER US,

TO MAKE SURE WE'RE

ALL DOING OKAY.'

SO I SAID,

'KIND OF LIKE A

BABYSITTER?'

MOM REPLIED .

'YES, SOMETHING

LIKE THAT.'

I WAS SATISFIED WITH

THAT ANSWER.

LATER ON,

I THOUGHT TO MYSELF :

BUT MOM SAID GOD'S A HE.

ALL MY BABYSITTERS

WERE GIRLS .

I DON'T KNOW IF

I BELIEVE IN GOD.

HOW COULD THERE

BE A GOD,

WHEN INNOCENT CHILDREN

GET RAPED,

AND MAIMED,

AND KILLED.

MAKE ME BELIEVE,

ANYONE?

SOMEONE SAW JESUS'

FACE ON HIS PIZZA

AT DINNER LAST NIGHT.

NOW I'VE JUST GOT TO FIND HIM.

vulnerable

Y

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

dang, you've got me love stoned/

he's seen me in

one of the worst conditions ever.

snot flowing down my face,

mascara streaked to my chin,

and in the midst of a puking episode.

any guy who can watch

you hurl your guts out

is a keeper.

and when he stays over,

he even lets me rant on and on

about girly shit stuff

he couldn't give two flying fucks about .

you don't just find friends like

that on the street corner.

he's seen every ugly, petty,

disgusting part of me

and that's why he's my

bestfr.

i love you brian .

school ended early .

towned with jenn &ben.

(that rhymed :D)

bought my black cardigan

without even trying it on.

which i now regret cause'

it's fucking big.

jenn wanted to watch

spiderman3 so we did.

it wasn't all that good,

but we had fun making

alot of noise .

gasping and giggling .

ben went home after that.

trained home with jenn.

stupid guy standing next

to us was being retarded .

he kept leaning over and

making this 'urp!' sound .

then suddenly jenn was like

"WHAT THE FUCK, i think

he's doing it on purpose"

super loud.

heeeah ,

and the thing is he kept doing it.

plus,

when i flipped open

my phone to read a msg i recieved,

he fucking leaned over to read.

zomg can?

then we kept talking about him

right to his face saying things like :

"annoying much?"

"damn, he sounds like a duck sia"

which was true .

believe it or not,

he asked what school we're from.

so we ignored him .

he asked like 8 times.

loser much.

vulnerable

Y

Monday, May 14, 2007

went shopping with mom

the past two days.

treated her to a lovely

manicure and pedicure

for Mother's Day.

buttttttt,

for God Knows What Reason,

she said i can't get my

allowance no more

five bucks a day/

how the fuck am i supposed

to fucking survive .

ben says he will let

me live off him .

hurrr,

ian donated 10

bucks to me.

and brian gave me money

to buy my jacket .

oh oh oh,

clare paid for my jelly

when i was having cravings today.

nat also offered to pay

for my lunch.

ya'll,

when i grow up and

become rich and famous,

i promise i won't forget

youuuuuu (:

some say love is not for sinners,

i believe that isn't true.

when i was finished sinning,

love came down and showed me you.

ASCENSION

ages ago in 2006

boys in the hood, not too long ago:D

vulnerable

Y

Friday, May 11, 2007

Clare+Audrey+Nat

C-A-N

heeeeahh.

mid-years are fucking over!

so yeah,

yesterday

(more like the day before yesterday

cause' it's like after 12 already)

after our last paper

three of us went outttt.

and camwhored like no one's

fucking business.

its been way too long !

so yeah,

walked around looking for

Clare's tinkerbell thingy .

and me moaning about

wanting the new iPod.

and nat..

just being nat.

took neoprintzxzxzxz.

went home quite early,

but all in all i had loads of fun.

I AM GROUNDED,

BEAT THAT.
LOSER MUCH?

vulnerable

Y

Monday, May 07, 2007

i've had many funny conversations lately.

mervyn: come for deafcon 3 alright?

audrey: okay i'll think about it.

mervyn: yayness {3(the heart emoticon thingy)

audrey: haha that emoticon is cute,

i'll steal it!

mervyn: haha go ahead, you're cute.

can i steal you?

audrey: quote mervyn "haha go ahead"

mervyn: yay :D

---

benedict c: go out with you TWO times

during the holiday la okay?

audrey: you say one ah.

benedict: okay must save what i say.

if not i will forget.

---

audrey: THERES A FUCKING COCKROACH

AND IM STANDING ON MY CHAIR!

justin: aiyah, cockroach only.

throw something at it .

audrey: ew no.

justin: throw a heavy thing and squash it.

then feed it to the cats.

vulnerable

Y

dickhead

vulnerable

Y

Friday, May 04, 2007

LateNightFridays

how i miss!

gonna get ready now,

don't know if i can make it in time.

think i'll be late,

as usual .

vulnerable

Y

Thursday, May 03, 2007

~~fond~~ memories of 2006
Sunday, November 05, 2006
you pick up the familiar shape of your pen knife,
hold it just a little over your wrist.
and with a swift movement,
slit the delicate skin open.
you watch,
as your own blood drips,
making a bright red stain
on the white formica table .
you think 'ow, that hurt'
but you have no idea how much
hurt I've been through the past few days.
I sit on my bed,
the silence deafening.
as I clutch my pillow,
so tight that my knuckles turn stark white,
willing myself not to cry.
but the tears come anyway .
just like they always do .

Friday, October 20, 2006

i feel sick .
everyone seems to be either
happy, or happily in love.
Aden's in love.
Jessica's in love.
Ambra's in love.
Amanda Choong's in love.
Lizzie Lee's in love.
Daniel's in love.
Eugene's in love.
Clare's in love.

Friday, October 13, 2006

i might be smiling &laughing on
the outside but
deep inside i'm screaming .
from the start i promised myself
i wouldnt let myself sink too deep.
but, i broke my own promise.
ahh
this week hasn't been good at all .
with you,
i have to dig deep into places
i didn't know i had .
i used to be a girl who would'nt
fall in love .
i'd sort of glance down and
realize i was mired in it .
but with you
i just had to look into your eyes
&feel the world spinning beneath my feet .
i saw in your soul
all the things that were
missing in mine .
i'm not ready for this to end,
not yet.
i was talking to jessica
last night &suddenly her boyfr
called her so she had to go .
the whole night i lay on my bed
covered by my blanket
imagining the murmur of two voices.
that used to be me &you,
i thought.
eyes open, heart broken
i cried myself to sleep again .

_________________________________

doesn't it seem to be that

2006 sucked?

God's finally given me

what i've wanted for so long .

vulnerable

Y

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN &BENNY :D

recently i've been procrastinating,

fucking alot .

like i'm so darn stressed

over midyears!

i think i'll just die please,

i still have like Os and everything

in the future.

i suck,

right ian?

absolutely right .

see?

i should burn in hell .

gymed last night after liiiike

74679256405 years!

felt super good .

need to get rid of all my fats D:

think i gained 1kg since

i stopped trng.

oh wells,

i'll work on it after the midyears.

as for noooow,

studies come first.

i've been studying really hard ogay,

but i still feel like i'm gonna fail.

how how how,

i really have to do well this term.

screwed up last year and term one.

i'll just die if i fuckup this year!

you &me,

flesh to flesh.

vulnerable

Y